Yesterday I was panicky before SS cos I wasn't really prepared.
Then I was depressed cos of poor time management. Super dejected.
Then I was over the moon cos I had a brilliant day after that. Or evening.
And I kept grinning to myself till the time I went to bed. I was just so happy, I haven't been that happy for a long time.
And today, I was happy for a while... and then thoughts of things are making me miserable again. It's toooooo long, I'm telling ya. Too long. But of course it may seem like I'm out of my mind cos I'm not making sense and I'm not explaining myself. But it's gonna seem like forever.
But it's really just my thoughts. I mean, it's not
that bad. But it just is, in my head.
Ugh sometimes I wish I had a backbone. Getting clingy is
no good. I wish I could sing
I'm A Survivor like I used to. I wish I wouldn't be easily affected by the slightest change in weather and stuff like I used to. I used to be okay in my own skin, by myself, in my own corner. In other words, a happy loner. :p But I can't be that anymore and worst of all... I don't want to.
Oh god. Please grant me a backbone. :p
Oh yeah. I've also lost my motivation to study. I forgot why I was motivated to study. I hope the reminder comes soon. And I hope I find the motivation soon. *cringe*
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